Journal Entry 3

I had a dream about you yesterday. It wasn't a good one. It wasn't about me missing you and constantly thinking about you, I think it was about what I subconsciously think of you. In my dream it was you but not you, not the person that I grew to know and love. It was the one I feared from, it's what I think of you now.

I still keep thinking that maybe there's a reason behind your disappearance but after knowing you for 6 years I know that there's none and that's just your way of cutting yourself out of the picture. I won't say good riddance even though it's on the tip of my tongue. I know that you're a good person and someday you'll make a girl happy, but that girl is not me.

I keep wondering if I will ever meet someone that will love me unconditionally, like truly love me. I want someone that will make me the center of his world, where everything else revolves around me. I don't want to seem so conceited and an attention seeker, but I really need someone to make me feel like I'm a worthy person, I want someone that will make me believe in true love. I just hope that I find that someone soon enough.