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I have found myself in quite a dilemma. I've been going through some things and whenever i reach a decision and go for it i find myself doing the exact opposite unintentionally. I've been at this for over two weeks now and theres still no change. Whenever I do What i think is best and actually do it, I regret doing it the next day and think of another thing that i do think is right and the cycle starts all over again. This all revolves around the same issue, I've asked for advice from the people closest to me and know what I've been going through and I can't follow their advice because they're not telling me what i want to hear, they're telling me the truth and I guess I'm still at the denial stage where I can't accept the truth. I don't know what I want but I do know what I don't want which makes it harder. This thing is taking its toll on me, I feel suffocated and whatever I do is not helping... The only solution I've got is wait a year and I don't think that I can go on like this for a whole year.